No energy for anything,
not even for a smile.
I walk in a daze
out of synch, floating by.
The seconds and minutes pass
I stand apart from it.
I watch them all in haze
a pinch I feel, a touch of envy.
They have joys to share
and i’m left alone
can’t think,  can’t even breathe.

Lay It Down Slow

Heard this song from the finale episode of Prison Break. I love it. 

It’s making me weepy (again).

If you’ve got dreams in your heart
why don’t you share them with me?
and if dreams don’t come true
i’ll make sure that your nightmares
are through

if you’ve got pain in your heart
why don’t you share it with me?
and we’ll just wait and see
if it’s half of what it used to be

and lay it down slow
lay it down free
lay it down easy
but lay it on me

if you’ve got love in your heart
why don’t you keep it with mine?
i can’t promise a miracle
but i’ll always be trying

and lay it down slow
lay it down free
lay it down easy
but lay it on me

lay it down easy
lay it on me

lay it down easy
but lay it on me

 

Steady and strong
like an anchor to a ship.
At first jolting
brings a sudden rush, a heart pump.
Then it settles
warming the tips of my toes
a bit of a tingle and a whole lot of flutter.
I submit myself
to slumber, to dreamland.
Basking in the fervor
of being enveloped in your arms.

My Thoughts on 500

We watched 500 Days of Summer and I love it!

I had low expectations because my sister said that it was not a glossy movie. Some said it was a realistic love story. And as you know i’m more into the fairy-tale-love-conquers-all type of movie. So I really didn’t know what I was getting myself into. It turns out that all reviews I heard of the story was right on the dot. I read somewhere that the movie speaks to all people. That each person will find a situation or a role to relate to. You can be the hopeless romantic person who believes in soulmates, fate and ‘the one’. Or you can be the realist who never falls in love but just takes things as it is. What I like best about the movie is that even if they tried to tone down the idea of fate and love, it was still made about love in the end. It still spoke of being with the person you know is right for you. It just so happened, that it wasn’t the two lead stars living happily ever after. And that’s what makes it all realistic. It doesnt take heartbreaks out of the equation and what makes it all better than fairy tales is that it gives everybody hope that even if you get your heart broken, you can still end up with the person you’re really meant to be with. Even if you’re the person who does not believe in love you will. Because you will feel it. You will wake up one day and just know.

And that’s what you call a realistic ever after.
 

Friday the 30th

It’s Halloween! Costume parties all over town tonight for sure. I’m envious!
And because i’m bored waiting for our office to let us go home early, i came up with Random Halloween facts about me: 

1. I haven’t been in a Halloween costume party. I’m not counting office activities when we made up our face to scare ourselves.
2. When I was a kid, I was scared of this season. I feared that the people in costume were like taunting the ghosts to come out and play.
3. I haven’t tricked or treated ever.
4. I always remember the movie, Hocus Pocus when Halloween comes around. Loved that movie. Haven’t watched it again. I’m not sure if I would still like it.
5. If I was getting a costume for halloween, I would imagine picking a she-devil costume. Leather skirt, balck top, thigh-high boots, red horns with red-engine lipstick
6. I can’t recall any significant Halloween memory I have. What have I been doing??

So, what are your Halloween factoids?

Today, somebody told me that I shouldn’t be in a bad mood because I live a semi-charmed life. And you know what? That made me feel good.

I guess I just need to be reminded sometimes.

and yes, i’ll take semi anytime

Good vs Great

‘Have a great day!’

That’s sweet.

But the moment I read it, I wanted to blog and say this. Because really, a day can never be great without you. I can have a nice day, a lucky day, a good day even. But a great day? That only happens on a weekend.

 

 

 

 

I’m posting this because I want to give you a hug right now.

And I need one too

 

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Hyper Much

I feel restless. The kind of feeling I have when I see something in the mall that I can’t wait to buy. Only this time, there is nothing I want.  Spent the whole weekend in the mall and didn’t find anything appealing to waste my money on. For the first time, I feel I have so much clothes in the closet that i’m just willing to mix and match rather than dispose and replace with something new. Going back to my restlessness. I don’t know what in the world is making me apprehensive. Nothing is coming up at work, there is no special occassion coming up. But I feel so antsy. Which makes me want to think of planning on something special. Just to justify this feeling. At least if I have a plan, I know that i’m excited for that. But what do I plan on? Christmas? Early Christmas shopping? Another out of town trip? Way too expensive.

Fine. I’ll just sweat my ass off.  Too much energy bottled up yet again.